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[May. 7th, 2008|12:25 am] |
So I am technically suppose to be in Texas right now visiting my Omi with my mom. Unfortunately my mothers car broke down and so I am at my parents house in Tullahoma awaiting my Geo Tracker which is in the shop getting everything but a new body since I killed it last year. The Corolla I was using has gone to my baby brother who now that I have turned the keys over to him will not return it with out a fight for any reason not that I would want to ruin his fun anyways. So I'm stuck chillin' at my parents house.
Its kind of weird how things that have been the way they have been for so long are now slowly morphing. My parents are moving and I am not being included in the move which is refreshing but odd to not feel the compression of stress that comes with getting ready to move while my family is. All the things I've had stored at my parents house, which hasn't felt like my house ever though oddly it still feels like home, are now migrating to my apartment and sitting in hastily packed boxes until I can find the time and more importantly places to put the things they contain.
I can't help but feel like I am on the cusp of something larger than that final cut of the umbilical from my parents home being my home though. Graduation from Tech is not all that far off in the distance. I have a year left and then I'll have a BFA and so far no real plans as to what to do. All I really know is I don't want to stay here and I don't want to follow my family any more in their nomadic wanderings of the world. Twenty Four years is enough.
I am not ready to settle. Which has brought other things which seemed so far, far off in the distance of the future under the magnifying glass of scrutiny. All these questions which I would like to write off as irrelevant or silly keep popping in my head and as hard as I try to brush them aside I can't and I am aware that very soon I'll have to come to terms with what I truly want and what I am avoiding because its easier than possibly ending up with an answer I might not want.
I have fears over things I never expected to have and a new found sense of security over others I did. I prepared myself so well for the things I expected to fail at that I am now failing in the areas I expected to excel. I am probably talking in riddles which is fine since these days I have been feeling like everything I do and say inevitably comes up for discussion and I feel embarrassed by the conclusions I assume must be concluded about me and my character of which I haven't been the most proud of as of late. But then again I place a much higher position of regard upon myself and my position than I actually have and in truth I am probably not being discussed at all and am being a ninny for even worrying my self over it.
There are only three things I should be worrying about
1) finishing school
2) saving up money
3) what I am to do with myself once I am out of school
Two of those are easy as pie and leave no trace of stress or worry on my person the third however leaves me laying awake at night tied up in knots. I'll figure it all out although it will feel like I am living with a colony of butterflies in my stomach until I do. |
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| an exuberant amount of elation is in order I believe |
[May. 2nd, 2008|11:17 am] |
Well the semester is over and I am happy to say I did well in everything except metals which I figured since I basically stopped going after I missed the second critique. Oh's the wells. I'll survive making a bad grade in a class I don't need to get A's and B's in the ones I do need any ol' day.
New things.
My roommate got a Kitten. He is adorably vicious.
I also got a pet. Whilst looking at the for sale board at the school after leaving the bank I noticed a notice for a 43 inch ball python with tank and etc. Decided what the heck I'll go look at it and hold it since I like snakes and the ad says friendly. Needless to say I fell in love with the little fellow and now have a new pet snake. Which I have agreed to let Nathan say is his. Nathan changed his name from Big Louie to Damien (the name of the wrestler Jake the Snake's snake).
Other than that.
My brothers are all graduating from something (2 from community college and 1 from High school), I am going to Texas with my Mom to see my Omi soon, getting my tracker back in time for the summer with a new soft top, engine and bumper. My Family is moving to Ohio in a month and I am getting a new mac for my birthday. Yippee!
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[Apr. 23rd, 2008|11:50 am] |
Still waiting on the new mac. Then I will be a posting maniac. I just had my painting II final. It went well. Two more finals to go and then I will be done with this semester and on to the summer. I'm taking two education classes over the summer, a CPR ceritfication class, the Praxis 2, and the PLT. So it will be a busy little summer but I am excited for it. before the summer classes start I'm going to Texas with my Mother to visit my Omi(grandmother) because she has a surgery nothing major but she wants company for it so that will fun.
mmm... thats about it for now. Birthday is around the corner but I think it'll be pretty low key this year since most of my friends are going to Japan or live far away. It'll be nice though I'll find something to do to celebrate.
Hope everyone is doing well. <3
OH... I forgot the biggest news! Jen and I got a KITTEN! its adoreable and named Oscar de la soda. Like Oscar de la Renta(sp) but Soda because he is the color of soda ash. |
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[Apr. 17th, 2008|04:07 pm] |
YA the weather is looking up and so am I. The end of the semester is in view. I love my job at the Thai restaurant. Its awesome and the people are too. I miss alot of my craft center friends but am more than happy about not living there as living with some many not just girls but artists was very draining. I've learned I need space away from all that.
School is going decent. I'll have done well in some and not so great in others but they will all be finished and thats is what matters. so YIPEE!
Anywhoodles. I'll post another long detailed post about what all I have been doing and whats going on and so on once I get a free moment near a computer that works. I got the internet only to have my computer rap out on me but I am getting a new MAC so that is fine by me. Fair trade. |
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[Mar. 7th, 2008|12:14 pm] |
Still no internet but I have been doing well and living life to the fullest that I can as a student.
I am currently on Spring Break. Haven't done anything really although I did get a job at the Local Thai restaurant which is awesome! I love it. I get a free meal every time I work which is delicious! Yum Yum. The mango Curry is my favorite.
Nathan is doing good. I am suppose to visit him soon. He is flying me out there. The week after that I am going to New Orleans for the Annual National Art Education Association Conference. That will be really cool I need to make up some business cards and print out my resume to take around with me. Hopefully I'll get some leads on places to look at applying once I am done with school. I am really looking toward Chicago since I believe that is where Nathan will be.
My family is moving to Ohio this summer. I am sad that the will be farther away. Its only like 7 hours but thats not drive down for the weekend trip distance anymore.
The house is doing good and Jen gets back from Cali this Saturday.
I have some paintings going into a school show. They aren't the greatest things in the world but its fun to have them up and shown. That goes up this Monday in the Lobby of the Music and Arts building for 2 weeks.
Got my hair done. I am really happy with it. I got it lightened so its a lighter blonde and it has some really choppy layers that are a lot of fun to play with. I have been playing with it a whole lot and am excited to have more options for styling it.
Fall and summer scheduling is coming up soon. I am hoping to be out of here in 2 semesters. Praying it doesn't take me any longer than that.
I passed my Praxis I and I am seriously thinking about taking the Praxis II over the summer and just getting it out of the way. I think it would be very manageable and possible to do. I also want to try to find some program to work with to get some teaching practice in and gain some more experience. I just need to start looking around for summer programs and everything.
Well that is whats been going on with me. Sorry i can't be on every day. I wish I could but its amazing how hard it is to get on when you can't just turn it on at home. I am never near a computer lab. Hope you all are well. <3 ... and that I get internet soon. I am definatly going through with drawls. |
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[Feb. 3rd, 2008|10:22 pm] |
Currently in the middle of researching internet services in the area. Should have one by the end of the week (hopefully). Thank goodness. I am going through with drawls.
things of interest
*Cast my first casting. I am happy with it and in love with casting. I am very very close to investing in a kiln and gravity set up so I can do this on my own once the class is over.
*the Giants won the Super bowl. It was a fun game to watch. Neither of those are my team ... mainly because I don't have one but I always root for the underdog so I am glad the giants won although I would have been just as glad had the Patriots won. Either way I prefer games where it's close they are more interesting than watching a team get annihilated and this game was close.
*my apartment is awesome and I love it.
*I have a quiz and a test on Tuesday. First of the semester. Hoping they go well.
*Started a metal show on Thursdays with my friend Joe. We are currently arguing over what to name it. He wants "Hades Sandwich Shop" and I want "Cthulhu's Mix tapes" and our compromise name is "Thor's Days" so ya we shall see what it ends up named.
I'll see if I can get some decent photo's of the rings and things I've cast as well as the paintings I've been working on so far this semester soon. <3 |
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| technical difficulty |
[Jan. 25th, 2008|09:15 pm] |
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I just got back to Tennessee and I'm typing this in a skate park. I have no internet at my house yet. I will return as soon as I get some web service. <3 |
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[Jan. 17th, 2008|12:58 pm] |
I have been growing my hair out for about a year and a half now. Nathan asked me to just to see how long it would get because he likes long hair. Now 6 months from the deadline he tells me that he doesn't mind if I cut it and I am forever grateful. (I think we both got tired of me shedding as I shed like crazy).
Now I can cut my hair and all I know is that I want to go lighter, add bangs and layers. Ideally I'd like to keep some length as I have enjoyed playing with my hair long. I'll probably post some hair styles I like in a few days. Perhaps you all can help me decide.
Right now though I need to pack because Nathan and I are going to Virginia Beach for the next couple days for Sara's wedding. I still need to get my shoes. I am really excited since I am a brides maid for her and the wedding will be awesome. I'll post pictures as soon as I get some back. After the wedding I am flying back to Tennessee where I will begin classes right away.
Totally excited to get home though because I have a new apartment that I have spent less than 24 hours in and I am so ready to get settled and enjoy it. Need to find a job pronto though. My mom is willing to help me in any times of need but I would prefer to not have her have to pay for anything. I've heard of a few placed that are hiring though so I'll get on those as soon as I get back in town.
Gonna miss Nathan a ton though. He made the best dinner last night. Eggplant and artichoke hearts alle neopolitana I think it was called. It had fried eggplant layered with sauted tomatoes, onions, artichoke hearts, and kalmata olives. We decided to fry up some mushrooms as well just to see how they would taste. They are delicious. The whole dinner was fabulous. I'm really going to miss Nathan's cooking when I am back in TN. |
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[Jan. 16th, 2008|02:55 pm] |
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You are The Star
Hope, expectation, Bright promises.
The Star is one of the great cards of faith, dreams realised
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So far since posting earlier I have found Nathan's wallet, patched two sets of holes in the walls of Nathan's apartment, done a load of laundry, and finished knitting the hat part of a monster hat. I am breaking for a late lunch. |
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| cooking adventure |
[Jan. 16th, 2008|09:36 am] |
It feels like a Monday but its Wednesday. Drat!
So I am trying to make a conscious effort not to whine. There really isn't anything to whine about anyways but I am trying to make sure I keep from whining about nothing so much.
Yesterday I tried to make a no bake pie from Vegan with a Vengeance. It turned out edible but not very pretty. I think it had something to do with using chunky peanut butter(the only type Nathan has in abundance) and not having a blender or food processor to mix everything I mixed it by hand which left the tofu a little bit crumbly. Like the smallest crumbles of fetta cheese sized crumbles but thats still noticeable in a pie that is suppose to be smooth. It tastes good though despite being the ugliest pie I have ever seen. haha. I was delighted with how easy everything was to make despite not having a blender/ food processor. My friend Shane recommended Vegan with a Vengeance years ago and I just never got around to getting it. Now Nathan is Peskitarian(sp) heading toward Vegan and I am enjoying making him food and even better trying his. He is actually a much better cook than I.
I have however mastered the Vegan cupcake. Which I am in love with either from a box or scratch I think they have a better texture and flavor. I am actually not all that fond of baking cupcakes from the box anymore. Its just as easy to make them from scratch and much more satisfying. I am actually really excited to try a non-vegan recipe that I am going to try to convert. I'll let you know how it goes when it happens.
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| Its been a long road |
[Jan. 15th, 2008|10:53 pm] |
I have been shamefully lax in keeping up with this journal. sheepishly I have to admit that I have been posting at my knitting blog. I know terrible of me. I am however determined to get back on track posting here. I miss hearing from my lj friends. So here are some of the things that have been up lately.
I made a couple of cute hats that people seem to like so here is the pattern. If you make it let me know and post a picture I'd love to hear about it and see it.
Then there was the devastating news about Vampira's death. I love Vampira to the death and beyond and am glad that she passed on quietly in her sleep but am still very saddened by her death. This will take you to more information about Maila Nurmi(aka Vamira).
( On a happier note. )
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[Nov. 15th, 2007|06:19 pm] |
marriage
Originally uploaded by dielaydbugdie.
one heart plus one heart peoples! It shouldn't be so hard to understand. |
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| Missing you and live journal too |
[Sep. 20th, 2007|12:30 pm] |
I miss everyone on here. i haven't posted ina million years. i have been posting in my knitting blog and been to lazy to come over here which is just shameful.
Anywhoodles I am going to try to be better because there are a lot of amazing people on here that I miss hearing from and about. I know that most of us are only internet friends but it doesn't feel like that. I honestly think of you all as friends because you all influence my life. |
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| wow wow what?! |
[May. 25th, 2007|11:37 am] |
Hey all I am alive I am well. I am on vacation and I will be back to Tennessee tomorrow. I have been having a great time in VA. When I get back to TN I am starting summer classes. Finally taking science credits. Gonna search for a job and hopefully find one. Save up money so I can move to Richmond.
And now for the big news. I am ENGAGED. yup. Nathan and I are going to get married. We are shooting for next summer no official date set yet.
Well I am going to jet just wanted to share the big news. |
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[Apr. 19th, 2007|12:08 pm] |
So I have been going to Goth night the past couple sundays with Kyra. Last week we also brought Kathrine. Its been a blast. I have always loved goth, cyber, and industrial culture no clue why. I think its something to do with growing up in a scifi influenced family while reading horror based novels at an early age. Just natural progression if you think about it. I don't know if I can make it this week though I would love too.
I have to finish my fibers project which I am really excited about. I am making a skirt. Its a short little ruffle skirt (a type that I am not usually drawn to but which seemed perfect for the woven peice I made). I am pairing my woven work with a brown quilted apolostry fabric of similar weight and an appropraite brown. I had the hardest time finding a brown that would match since I used the choclate brown when I was dying my peice and its a bit red on cotton. Anyways. found it and I think it's going to be darling. I can't wait to finish it and wear it. I hope it looks as great as I am imagining it.
I started packing up my extras. My books and yarn that I won't have time for or a need for til school is out in 2 weeks. I am going to take them home later today probubly.
Nathan is coming to visit in 20 days. YAY! I can hardly wait. I am so excited. He's coming out for my birthday and my mom's birthday/mothers day. I feel bubbly just thinking about it. Then I am going to go back to VA with him for a week. I am hoping this summer goes by well.
My only worry is that I might get suspenced for a semester. I am really hoping I don't. I got put on academic probation last semester. I think I should be fine but I am not sure since the drop for anthropology didn't go through so I believe I should be getting an F in there. Not good. We'll see though I am blindly hoping I'll be fine. Strange how quickly you can fall when you switch schools. I was an honor student and how I am on academic probation and fearful of suspension. The worst part... My dad who pays for my schooling doesn't know I am on academic probation... so if I get suspended I am in deep do-do. Yay. no good. |
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[Apr. 15th, 2007|04:25 pm] |
I hate not being able to post on here when ever I feel like and I haven't been working sundays much recently so I can't post at work as often either. Pheh!
Enough of the whine now onto the good stuff.
The brown high collared jacket from Ms. Rachel Fisher's Play Clothes BFA exhibit at the Appalachian Center for Craft belongs to me. YAY! I convinced my parents to get it for me for my birthday... which is in a month and besides the point. Rachel was selling her work for a steal. The jacket was only $70. I bought her apron bustle which is on the other form hiding under the jacket and another apron for $20. I amrally happy to just own Rachels work which is beautiful.
Here is a shot of the back of the jacket I bought.
I have been currently reading a delightful history of Heavy Metal that my brother got me. 
Nathan is coming to visit me in 24 days. I can't wait. I am in the works to get it so I can return to VA with him for a week.
I went to Hobby Lobby this past week and bought the nessacary supplies for my new project for fibers as well as several patterns. All the Mcall patterns were on sale for $1.99. Which ment I just got all the ones that I liked in my size since for the cost of 2 full price I'd be getting like 10. Most of them were costume patterns. Which doesn't really matter to me since I think alot of the stuff can be altered slightly or done in the right fabrics and look modern and wearable. I got some Civil War era Patterns things like that. The jackets woulg look great with jeans in my opinion.
I am going to try to get better at sewing this summer and get over my intimidation from patterns. They are intimidating but once you sit down and figure it out its all ok. Still my heart definatly picks up every time I open a pattern and start laying it out to cut the fabric.
I am praying that I can make it through the next week. Its going to be hellah busy starting today. I agreed to go to Goth Night with some friends whom I don't get to go out with much. In the morning I am going to get a tooth filled for preventative matters after which I drive back to school (40 minutes) attend class, drop off my cd so that joe can cover for me, cut the next class and go to Andrew Bird with Merideth.
Joe will do my radio show. Come home sleep a little. Cut out fabric peices for mock up of project, make mock up. If that goes well cut out fabric for final. Sleep. Wake up work then go to class.
Its really not as busy as I thought its just the driving that is going to be hard. an hour to nashville and back. an hour to the dentist and back. so on and so forth. It'll be good though. I need to get out of my routine.
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[Apr. 1st, 2007|03:24 pm] |
Man it seems like a million years have gone by.
So the radio show is going well. I am trying to figure out how to get an podcast going with out owning a mac. That is going to be my big project as soon as the semster ends.
I got everything in order to see what classes I need to get done with school and I can finish in a year and one semster. So YAY! and thank heavens.
Went to College night at Play a gay bar in Nashville not to long ago and loved it! It free to get in with a college id so I am like hell ya. It has a great dance floor and an awesome drag show so I am set for the rest of the time here with a work out and a garunteed good time on Wensday nights if I don't have any homework etc.
This upcoming Saturday there is a Roller Derby in Nashville at the State Fair Grounds. It should be awesome its a bout between the Assault Rivals and the Damsels of Distress.
Ya. Nathan and I are doing good. The distance is a bit straining but I think we are handling it very well. He is going to come visit for a week in May and I am planning on going to visit VA for a week as well.
hmmm... if you are in no mood for venti venti move on to the next lj.
I have to vent this but it amazes me that some people can't be happy just letting people be happy they have to dreg up calm waters and rip open old wounds just to make them selves feel like they are having a meaningful converstaion. It reminds me why I don't spend much time with people at this campus anymore and why I am happy not to. In 2 years its more than likely that these people will be mere speed bumps on the road that is my life so I refuse to let them get to me and make me feel inferior and bad when they are just as bad if not worse than I am. Don't judge me and expect me to continue to be simpathetic to your life and its imperfections or moral flaws. I am human and I hope they can lay the *bleep* off of me before I get annoyed enough to blow a fuse. |
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[Mar. 21st, 2007|10:23 am] |
Hey everyone!
My home computer has been driving me bonkers. I will type out my days to share them with you and when I go to post it kicks me out. Its sad and I don't know why its doing that but I'll figure it out eventually.
School is good and busy.
Spring break was awesome and in Virginia Beach.
Knittapolloza was great and I learned alot and now I have to get back to work.
Thanks Altar for pointing out that video that is hillarious.
Miss everyone I am reading how you all are doing still. |
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| out of the shadows no maybes |
[Feb. 22nd, 2007|04:49 pm] |
meep meep moop!
I am doing great. I got out my fibers class and for the first time in a while I have nothing to do. Its so exciting. i can clean and knit and do so many things. YAY!
Before yesterday I was feeling tired all the time. I don't know what it was but it was hellah annoying. I am glad that its over. I found this awesome crafter yesterday. I really like her stuff. Here is her blog Bloody Craft. She's from berlin and is just an inspiration like so many of you crafters out there.
I am really excited about the next fibers project. I think I know what I want to make for now its a suprise. SHhh! I'll reveal more later.
I have actually been squeezing in time to knit agian. YES! I am so stoked on it. Nathan bought me a new knitting book. I am so excited about it. I have read the authors blog for quite a while and have been stoked on her book coming out (none of this nathan knew) and it was her book, Domiknitrix, that he got me. AWESOME. I can now focus my attention to purchasing Naughty Knits.
I don't know if I mentioned it at all but I have been doing a DJ training class through the schools radio station. Its alot of fun I am really liking it alot. I can't wait til I can get my own show but I am not sure exactly how I want to set it up. I'm debating on keeping it open to all things or if I should limit myself down to a couple things and have a specialized show. Its something to think on.
Spring break is coming up. I am going to be going to VA, Hurray, to see my guy and friends. My summer is really up in the air right now. Not sure whats going to happen with that.
ya... I think that is about it. Have an awesome day its beautiful here today.
oh ya. p.s. the new mint mocha frappichinos by starbucks are delicious. Yum Yum to bad their limited time. |
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| Bloom where you are planted |
[Feb. 11th, 2007|11:35 pm] |
![[info]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) loveintheory posted about the bloom project and it was just to beautiful a concept not to share. Please enjoy. Its like a dream I would have loved to have seen this in person. |
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